Life... Feelings....

A week of rest at home, I brought Shaney to her childcare everyday.. the feeling is really different from the usual pick n go... I manage to see the teacher there.. I send her personally with a kiss of goodbye.. I can make sure that she had her medication, breakfast, teeth brushing.. Am i going to give up something and be like this?

Yesterday night had do assessment with Shaney.. before sleeping.. she manage to spell out her own name.. This is the kind of fulfillment of Mummy when the kids are growing and learning... Was so delighted..

Heard of a bad news yesterday.. Uncle Huge was gone on Saturday.. Is kind of shocking news and this bring some kind of emotional thinking again... Life is so fragile.. Why are we keep demanding something where we don't treasure what we have now? Why are some people just so persistent over certain issue?

Very tired these few days... trying very best to rest my mind.. hope that everything will go fine after this.. May God blessed...

Goodbye...

Today is the day i say good bye.. My little darling, I'm so sorry... Mummy didn't manage to kept you warm.. Mummy didn't manage to protect you well..

Bleed stain on my panty on Sunday morning.. more bleeding came in the evening gave mummy a shock.. Immediately rush to KKH.. Doc say that the water bag isn't that normal.. the tiny little dot in it seems to be my little ones but the sizes is only 5 weeks big instead of 8 weeks which suppose to be.. follow up with scanning test and cant detect the heart beat... Totally depressed... sad..

Doc cant confirm if is still there... suggested to do a blood test to check on the hormone.. and another one in 2 days time.. The uncertain, unconfirmed situation makes me unsecured and i had replied that I could like to go back to my gynae to check again..

Actually from the blood flow, already had known that my little one cant pull thr... On my way back home... tears keep flowing down to my cheeks... When we reach home, Shaney ask me.. Mummy why your face like want to cry like that.. Immediately tears flow down again.. Told Shaney, bb inside my tummy but cannot grow.. no more bb already... Is really sad to face this.. and Shaney gave mummy a warm kiss..

Went to CCK, My gyane side early in the morning... 1st to called in as I told the lady that I'm bleeding... Told my gyane abt the KK visit and he had a scan for me... As what I had feel.. The bb couldn't manage to make it.. I had an miscarriage... I feel bad.. I dun no if I had caused this.. Or maybe my bb had know that Mummy cant tolerant her work place any more.. and gave me a chance to find alternative as soon as i can..

I really feel bad.. Sad to have Miss my little ones.. Mummy will always remember this day.. Tmr gona to Thomson Medical to have it cleaned...

I felt that suddenly all the bad thing came at the same time.. tat really frustrated, emotional, miserable.... can all these be an END pls!!!

Surgery again...

Shaney is going to surgery again in 2 weeks time... What is this now? Her eyes... the so called "bak chiam" this little ball had been on Shaney Eye for mths... and we had finally decided to get rid of it since applying antibotic cream cant remove it.. Doctor suggested to have a cut and throughly clean it..

First is the right eye, recovering till a little red dot and come the right eye.. OMG! I hate tat feeling to the surgery again..

My little poor gal.. Hope tat this is will be last...

Bad Mood!!!

Tot that I should be happy these few days but instead i fell Damp Bad Mood.....

I had done beyond what had to be done but still got negative feedback from superior, reading email at home for long leave and MC isn't that extra effort that I had put into my job? Nowadays ppl are getting more n more attitude, petty and narrow minded. Hate all these.. Hate all the unnecessary politics..

Here u dun have to work hard, Just make sure "tat person" like you, if he/she likes you, dun need to work also u are a good worker... tat too obvious!

Some ppl are just born to have good life.. Promoted 2 times within 2 years... Just my luck, coz i'm Singaporean.. country of Origin is different and hence caused all the shit.. Ppl who worked here as the 2nd co commented my customer Service is poor with my more than 13years of customer service experience.. this is the 1st feedback i got back so far for this. Wat a remarks to be taken in???

Cant even close my eyes and rest my mind yesterday knowing that I be facing the SHIT again on Monday. No choice now, just have to test my endurance, patience and get this over in mths... 
Effort is wasted for the past year, I don't think i gona waste anymore this year!

What I care now is my gal health, notig is more impt than that.. Whatever ppl feel, just let them be.. I will just do My "SCOPE OF JOB" notig beyond... Tats enough! I had enough!

CNY 2011

 Some CNY Photo to share...  Shaney school party Cheong Sam...

Her New Pyjamas brought at JB... IS MICKY MOUSE! Saw our new bedsheet.. Shaney loves it, coz it have lots of lots of animals.. There's hipo, Tiger, elephant.... etc

 Our 1st day of CNY ready for visiting... Shaney loves this dress so much....   

All other accessories is matched by herself. she told me, Mummy, i want to wear watch, i want sunglasses, i wan to bring bag... hahaha..

We had went off early on 1st day, we went to Temple to pray first.. tan to PoPo hse, after which to Er Jiu hse and the last stop at Piao yi hse.. A tired day.. but is fun... catching up with all the relatives, Aunty, Uncles, cousins, their kids.. this is our 1 year must activity.. and a good time to catch up with relatives.

2nd Day of CNY.. A photo of My family at Popo hse.. Daddy brought Shaney to Er Jiu hse for that day.. Mummy and went movie with Eer yi ma, popo and kai sim jie jie.. What we watch??? I LVE HK.. Nice movie.. Funny, some part touching.. story line not bad lah...

Mummy Bday

This year Mummy bday is on the eve CNY.. Ya! A lot of people celebrating for Mummy...

Daddy brought Mummy and Shaney to Jack's place for dinner on the 1st Feb since we will be having dinner at Po house on the 2nd Feb. 

We had a great meal.. Daddy having Mix Grill, Mummy having Jack's special and Shaney having their Steak Kids Meal...

Yummy Yummy.. Mummy loves Jack's place steak and that is why Daddy brought mummy there...

2nd Feb, My Actual Day of Bday and also eve of CNY.. We had whole Abalone... Yummy Yummy.. hee.. Yes! each an abalone.. Even Shaney love it.. Luckily we have our Chief Wife Mrs Wong Around.. hahaha (my 2nd Sis lah)..

After the "FULL" dinner.. the whole family sing bday song for me.. This cake is brought by Daddy.. so nice..  Is cookie and cream flavour.. Yummy Yummy..  

Thanks everyone for the wishes and making my day a very very special one..  cheers..

Daddy Bday And Uncle Lai Wedding

15th Jan 11, We are going for a weekend gateaway at Johor Bahru coz we are going to attend Uncle Lai's Wedding Dinner. Today is also a speial day to celebrate.. Yes! Is Daddy Bday!

We went off early as Mummy like to do CNYshopping at City Square.. Had our long waited Wantan Noodle at one of the coffee Shop. Malaysia Wantan Noodle is NICE!

Mummy had brought pineapple tarts for CNY! Yippee...

Checked in Hotel at 3pm coz Shaney is going to have her afternoon nap.. Shaney loves to go Hotel.. Once we arrived, Shaney no longer feel sleepy..

The Room is really big..  with a mini bar counter at the extreme left side of the room, a resting area, the chair and a small coffee table.


The Big King size bed is good enough for 3 of us!!

The writing table cum dressing table is so spacious!








The View just entering the door.. with 2 carboards at the front and a full length Mirror just after the toilet.

Manage to get Shaney to nap for 1.5hr, Actually thought to go down for a swim but there isnt any baby pool / small pool, thinking of  just letting Shaney to "PLAY" with water, hence put her in the bath tub instead..

She loves the bubbles and she really Njoy!

Mummy and Shaney had dressed up for the dinner...

Daddy is also getting ready to go..

Here we are for the dinner...

Aunite Adeline and Uncle Hugh is there too, Shaney love to play with Uncle Hugh

We went back to Hotel after the dinner.. Shaney dont feel tired at all, she really njoy going out! Especially the stay at the hotel...

Tmr Morning, we went down to have our breakfast and went for a short walk at the parkson ( holiday Inn Plaza) that just beside us..

Had manage to find something for Shaney and she really love it..

Actually try this dress on her, thought that it was nice, but Daddy say not nice wor.. so didnt buy..

Had checked out at 11.30am, thought to go City plaza again for a walk, we had our little snake at Secret receipe and had brought a cheess cake back

Eer.. still in shape la, not bad already.. heee

We sing song for Daddy for the belated bday cutting of cake and we had our cheess cake.. NICE!!